I never challenge anyone’s personal walk with Christ. Trusting I will “know them by their fruit”. Gabriel claims to be a born again believer. I’ve been speculating, is he pawning artificial fruit, passing it off as the real thing? He once told my sister he had prayed for a woman like me to show up in his life. This was before I had ever said a word about praying for a man like him. He also told me that a tarot card reader said, “a queen would show up to help get the work done, but she’s not a romantic interest”. My symbol in the tarot deck is the Queen of Swords; Gabriel is the King of Hearts. I know these cards. They can and do reveal the future. If this reader herself had a “romantic interest” in Gabriel, why would she tell him the truth? A person can only give a reading if they have the spirit.The problem arises from which spirit you are in league with. Prophecy and discernment are gifts of grace. If you are gifted you do not need tarot cards. If you need the cards, you are in bondage to a demon spirit of divination. I myself was a reader until the Lord delivered me from witchcraft. I chose to give up the cards in favor of relying on the Holy Spirit to show me anything He wanted me to know. To date, I can still see.
The Spirit speaks to me in various ways. Most times in waking visions or dreams. Sometimes I just “know”, unable to find a reason for why I know. Kind of hard to describe in that I don’t hear voices. It’s like a kind of telepathy. I know it sounds crazy but that is how it works.
Think of it this way. If someone tells you, the bus arrives at 2:00 pm everyday you stand and wait. If you continue to wait day after day for a bus that never shows, well that’s crazy. But, what if the bus consistently arrives on schedule? My visions are manifest by the course of events. My bus always arrives on time. It’s not even about speaking things into existence. I speak with prior knowledge.
I’ve had a lot of dreams and visions concerning Gabriel. Sometimes it’s a sort of mind meld. When he told me he wanted a vest, I pulled out paper and pencil and literally drew him a picture of the images in his mind. Other times I get “videos” in my mind’s eye. The most surprising is the one where I am standing next to him when suddenly he snatches me into his left side making me a part of his body. Occasionally the vision is a little scrambled. I thought the refrigerator was going to break down. It turned out to be the water heater, a kind of round refrigerator in reverse mode. He accepts all this from me as a matter of course. It astonishes me. There have been few times in my life I was able to do this. Fewer still the people with who I could do it. Never has there been a time when it worked like it does with Gabriel. By God’s decree, Gabriel must be somebody special in my life. Otherwise, none of this stuff would work at all.
So there you have it. Not one to argue with the Holy Spirit, I have accepted Gabriel as a gift of grace from the Ancient of days. This is why I am so devoted to him. This is why I tolerate so much more from him then I would from anyone else. It turns out to be a burden. I have other options to invest my time and energy. Certainly, there are other men desiring to keep company with me. What am I supposed to do? You ever tried telling God, never mind.
He claims I am obsessed, but I remember. I remember God blessed us both with answered prayers.
